2010 uh, now what?

I'm such a snail when I don't have a plan.  I could easily spend days, weeks, even months spending time accomplishing nothing really.  Hell I've done it.  Now my mind is moving on to the impressions one leaves in life, I can't exactly think of what made me ponder this but I am.

I feel that we all leave an impression whether we are aware of it or not.  It might be nothing grand, but it's there affecting life/lives.  You know the whole domino effect or ripples in a pond kind of thing.  I sometimes feel insignificant that I could die and really what does it matter, what am I doing here?  Is all I'm made for to produce life? and if I don't then what the hell did I live for.  Then I remember a conversation I had with a person years ago, who I barely knew mind you.  They asked me the common questions of what do you do for fun? what do you enjoy? what do you do with your free time? kind of questions and my answers were travel when I can, don't know, and read.  That one conversation left me with an immense impression of my life. While to the other person it was probably nothing a quick conversation to just pass the time and something that didn't even register in their memory bank.  It's not like I didn't realize what my life was like and had been wanting to change, but something about that conversation propelled me to take action and slowly change my life.

So remember that the smallest actions mean something whether your aware of it or not.