Almost 10 years
Life happened so quickly speeding faster and faster and then it stopped
Almost 10 years passed in the blink of an eye so much happened and it went so quickly. Before I knew it I'm sitting in the doctor's office being asked about freezing eggs, inseminations, what are my plans for babies. I couldn't give an answer from the shock of times run out. The reality of it's time to decided before life decides for me it's too late.
I haven't given serious thought to this very serious life decision in ten years, because I had time. I didn't need to decided right this second so it could wait, until possibly my life situation changed better suited for thinking of reproducing.
I shoved this decision aside for months because life happened. A worldwide pandemic erupted, borders shut down, the economy started to decline, life as it was ceased to exist, a man was murdered on the street at the hands of four police officers, racism came to the forefront, anti-racism became a movement, election year meant political tension in the air, life happened.
Then I'm in a chair getting a beauty treatment just small talking with the lady when we enter on the topic of babies. We managed to have a very serious discussion in a light manner. Only to end sharing with each other baby decision at this moment in our lives. How when I was younger the possibility of infertility became real and the shocking emotions that came with that possibility. To the point I called the doctor in before the procedure to promise me he wouldn't leave me without the chance of babies of my own. So the lady simply says guess deep down you really want children. To which I replied I guess it's deeeep down because it's been almost 10 years. To which she replied guess we will leave it in God's hands. I softly replied Yea, I guess I will.
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