I didn't make a New Year's Resolution for 2009 and you know what I didn't need it. I would say my life is very blessed, as I look at photographs from time passed there are so many good times had. In this year that was flown by I've had many first. I went traveling with a friend for the first time. I made a conscious decision to meet new people, even though I hate doing that. I went skiing, horseback riding, white water rafted, tried a new way of showing faith, went to parties where I knew almost no one, I faced many fears, all of that for the very first time. Not all of it was pleasent, but I'm happy that I tried it out.
While I've gone back to an old routine in some aspects I've gone back with a different perspective and that changed it all. I'm amazed at how much changed when I decided to be happy. Much of my anger and resentment went away and hasn't been back in a while. I'm busy a lot because I'm spending time with people I enjoy. Nothing else changed except that one little decision and that affected every aspect of my life. I'm not richer, but I appreciate what I earn (not that I would sneeze at a better offer). I don't have more firends, but somehow I became more comfortable being around people I don't know. It's still akward sometimes, but it's a vast improvment from always. My work load hasn't lessend, but I'm glad to have it even if sometimes I do feel overwhelmed. I tell myself that the more I have to do the less likely I am to be without of a job. I was amazed when someone I know and respect told me she wished she had my life. I laughed because I wish I had hers. While somethings have changed I don't think that ever will: The grass will continue to be greener on the other side.
While I've gone back to an old routine in some aspects I've gone back with a different perspective and that changed it all. I'm amazed at how much changed when I decided to be happy. Much of my anger and resentment went away and hasn't been back in a while. I'm busy a lot because I'm spending time with people I enjoy. Nothing else changed except that one little decision and that affected every aspect of my life. I'm not richer, but I appreciate what I earn (not that I would sneeze at a better offer). I don't have more firends, but somehow I became more comfortable being around people I don't know. It's still akward sometimes, but it's a vast improvment from always. My work load hasn't lessend, but I'm glad to have it even if sometimes I do feel overwhelmed. I tell myself that the more I have to do the less likely I am to be without of a job. I was amazed when someone I know and respect told me she wished she had my life. I laughed because I wish I had hers. While somethings have changed I don't think that ever will: The grass will continue to be greener on the other side.
